Personal Blog!!

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As I said before I decided to keep my blogs separate! One about our family & one for my own PERSONAL HEALTHY VENTING!!

It's HERE!

I can’t believe that Christmas is already here! It feels like summer was just yesterday! Time has gone by way too fast. This year money has been so tight as it is for everyone at this time of year so it’s been a little hard for me to look forward to Christmas. Of course I have been excited for Mason because he finally understands Christmas a little bit. Ever since Christmas tree’s starting going up all he says is “ho ho ho”. He can’t stop saying “ho ho ho”. He has to touch our blow up snow man every night that we come home and give him a kiss. When we were leaving our house the other day he said “bye ho ho….pause….and friends”. It was the cutest thing I’ve ever heard! He is the cutest kid I’ve ever known…Biased I know but that’s because he is mine! Last night proved what a spoiled child I have!! I took him over to my boss’s to get his Christmas present from them. He is really into planes and they have them all over their house so of course that is what they got him. He was so excited to see his gift and to play with it. However he was not excited to share it with anyone, including her husband!! Her husband was trying to play with him & he was not willing to let him play too. We have got to keep him interacting with other kids! If he isn’t even willing to let an adult play with his toys then he will never share his toys with another child. He kept telling her husband to go sit in his chair! Then when he wouldn’t he laid on the ground kicking & screaming! I tried putting him in time out, telling him that Santa wouldn’t come but he didn’t care one bit. It went in one ear and out the other. It’s funny how our kids can totally embarrass at the times when things are supposed to be special. It’s just a good thing that it was at their house and not some strangers. They love him to death regardless but they have NEVER seen him act like that. Let’s hope tomorrow when he wakes up and Santa has been there he doesn’t act like the cute spoiled brat that he is!

PicTure day!

ThAnKsGiViNg 2008

Well Thanksgiving went rather well considering all the running around we had to do & Mason was a trooper. We started out the day at my brothers. We didn't get to eat with them but I did get to see my Aunt & cousin that I haven't seen in 3 years. It's my dad's only sister! Then I got to briefly see my Uncle as well. It was really good to see them. It reminded me that I need to start keeping in touch with them. I've always feared people but I'm an adult now & they are my family!! Mason got to play with his cousins, Kaden & Karson. He had so much fun. There is a year between him & Karson but finally they are getting older so they are understanding each other a little bit more. It was tender to watch them play together. Then we headed off to Mike's moms and ate some yummy turkey of course!! After that I headed over to a friends, my new adoptive moms with Mason. We visited with all their family & again Mason got to play. He loves going over there! He is obsessed with all the planes in their house because her husband is retired military so they got him some planes to play with. Amazing what a little plane can do for a child. He was in heaven! I'm so lucky to have their family in my life & take me on as an adoptee. I've always needed a mother figure in my life & now I have got one!! YAY! Sorry, no pictures were taken as Mike forgot the camera!!

Just an F.Y.I....

To the right you can see that I have added a separate blog site for myself. This is my venting blog for myself as I'd like to keep this one about our family & Mason!! I'll be keeping the other private so if you want to be added just let me know! Love ya all...

I'm still slightly alive

So I have been doing a lot of ranting on my blog lately! It probably sounds as if I’m going insane however I’m only slightly insane at this point! I don’t want to alarm anyone however blogging gives me a way to vent & a way to get some good feedback. I’m definitely having a midlife crisis but I’m going to make it through this! With lots of prayers & support! Thank you ALL for ALL your support. It really means a lot to me. It is what helps me go on another day…I will make it through this tough time in my life!! Thank you to EVERYONE!!

I AM DONE!!

Frustration, frustration, frustration! For years I’ve asked myself why I rely on people so much & trust that what they say they are going to do they will do? At my ripe age of 28, I should have learned NOT to count on people because usually they only let me down. Maybe my expectations are too high but I don't see that I expect too much. Just a little courtesy would be nice. They say they will call but they never call, they say they will see you soon but they never do, they claim that things are fine but things are NOT fine! I ALWAYS set myself up to always be let down. I shouldn’t expect things just because people promise them. In this difficult situation a person in my life who I consider a teacher, an inspiration & a true friend has let me down AGAIN. This has continually happened throughout our friendship so why do I even try to stay friends with this person? Because I am so DAMN insecure I think I need this person in my life when obviously I don’t because they only cause me pain & anger. Why do I find it okay to put myself in hurtful friendships? It’s NOT okay! Ugh…I’m letting go of this person. I don’t need them in my life. I am a good person & I deserve to be treated with RESPECT!