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Yes, I know my blog is very behind!! So we’ll start with Mother’s Day. It was a good but yet awkward day. Mike and I were technically still separated so it felt weird spending mother’s day apart. However I took Mason to see my mom where he got to play with my nephews and my great niece. I got to spend quality time with Mason, my nephews, my brother Justin, my niece Jamie and of course my Mom. So all in all it was a wonderful mother’s day!

Update

Okay, I totally intend to update my blog this week!! It is my goal...

March 2009

Well it seems that things are settling well for our family. Mike and I are still separated however it is working out well trading off with Mason every other day!! But oh how I miss him the nights that I don't have him. He's been a wild man lately. His personality is hilarious. His sentences are getting better and better however there is still a lot of jibberish!! So far I don't think he understands what is going on which is a very good thing. I had hoped that this wouldn't take a toll on him and so far it hasn't. He is still young enough that he doesn't understand. I want nothing but the best for Mason so we put him first!! No matter what happens between Mike and I, we will always do what is best for Mason. As for me I have been crazy busy between work, Mason & burying myself in my meetings that I attend to better myself. ;) It's amazing that at 29 years old I am finally finding myself again. It seems that I had lost myself somewhere along the way...almost as if I stopped maturing but I had all the responsibilites of an adult. If that makes any sense at all!! Here's some cute pictures of Mason being wild like always...He loves to pretend he's a cat or a dog!!

GOING PRIVATE!

I am going to be going private...please leave me your email address so that I can add you if you want to read!! Thanks everyone!!

Small update...

Well recently I have had some life changing events which includes a “trial” separation from Mike…I didn’t want to announce it to the world but it seems it gets around faster than I thought it would. All in all it is going very well. We have decided to keep Mason in his routine so we trade off every other night with one of us at home. It’s a little insane but it’s working out!! Other than that Mason is growing bigger everyday. His personality is coming out so much more lately. And he’s growing up WAY TOO fast! It makes me so sad. I want him to be a baby forever! I’ve never just let him go play outside by himself when we are at my brothers. Given he is out playing with my nephews however one nephew is an angel and the other is a “spawn”!! So luckily my angel nephew Kaden is old enough to watch Mason for me and report when the “spawn” Karson is trying to get Mason to do something he is not big enough to do yet. But of course I still have to have my eye on him 24/7. We really got lucky with Mason. He is such a good kid…needy like every other kid & has major temper tantrums when he doesn’t get his way. But he’s a 2 ½ year old with his mother’s temper!! I take all the blame!! I throw tantrums when I don’t get my way and I’m a grown 29 year old. He is truly a blessing & he is what keeps me trucking on everyday in my crazy life!! He is my whole entire life & I can’t wait to go home & snuggle with him tonight!!

I suck...

Okay so I suck at keeping up and ony seem to write when I am angry so I will try to change that however NOTHING eventful has been happening...just the normal stress of life. Ha ha, welcome to hell. Mason has been a character lately. His new saying is "cha cha cha, shake your booty". It is the funniest thing ever. He has also named himself "chicken little". So of course he got the chicken little movie for valentines!! He has now developed the habit of sleeping in our MINI queen bed which has caused me to have sleep deprivation. I am already narcoleptic so this has really caused some serious problems in my functioning!! And lucky for Mason our bed basically sits on the floor so every night when he falls off he doesn't have far to fall. Ha ha!!

Yesterday I got the pleasure of watching my friend Lindsay get her ultrasound to find out what the sex of her baby is!! OMG, I forgot how amazing it is to see a little one growing inside of someone. You could see her cute little legs just moving around like crazy. It makes me so baby hungry...but then I think of those long 9 months of heartburn...ugh...I wish that I was ready for another but I'm definitley not. I don't have enough time in our crazy lives right now to take care of anymore children!! I already have to take care of a 2/2 year old and a 36 year old, plus myself...oh and my 3 crazy animals that are all up for trade at this point. ha ha.

Too hard for two blogs...venting begins today

Weeding the bad people out of your life can be so hard. I have so many people that need to be weeded out of my life and yet I don't have the guts to do it. I can't take the pain that these people cause in my life anymore. How do you find the courage to let these people go? I keep setting my expectations too high of these people and they continue to let me down. I realize that it is my expectations that are letting me down but I put these people on a pedastal and I guess NO human belongs on a pedastal. I want to trust people again but as soon as I begin to trust, my trust is broken again by someone!