Mason turns 4

THE MAS MAN:

WESTON:

MASON'S BEST FRIEND JAYLEE:

LITTLE MS. KIYAH:

Wow, where has 4 years gone? Mason is an amazing 4 year old little boy. He is smart, funny and TOTALLY DRAMATIC! He is just like his mamma. Mason still spends each day with his Grandma and he loves every minute of it. This fall he will start soccer and he can't wait to kick the ball, win the game, get a trophy and as he also says, kick the other kids. Don't worry, we won't let him kick anybody on purpose! He is the best little boy and we love him dearly!

Heidi's Baby Shower

On May 1st we had a baby shower for soon to be parents Heidi(whitley) and Ron Butler. They are due to welcome their baby boy into this world on May 21st. They have waited a long time for this miracle to come along and we are all so excited for them!! It was a great shower shared with a couple GORGEOUS old faces I hadn’t seen in years. It was fun catching up with everyone and celebrating with Heidi & Ron. We took bets on when baby boy Butler will be born, I’m shooting for May 19!! Love ya Heidi and Ron.

Mason's 1st Bike Ride

My mom got Mason his first bike for Christmas!! Well needless to say, he still needs to learn a lot of coordination in order to ride it. He sure looked cute on it, but he couldn't figure out how to push the peddles hard enough to make go, go, go. But again, he looked cute on it and loves it!!

Dinosaur Park

The weekend after Easter Mike, his friends and his family all went to the Sand Dunes which left Mason and I home alone. The reason we were left behind is probably pretty obvious for most who know me! I used to love the sand dunes, but for all the wrong reasons! I didn't go to ride, I went to drink and party!! Well since I don't do either of those anymore, we figure it's best that I don't go on those trips anymore. And as long as we can protect Mason from being around drinking because alcoholism is so prominant in the family, then we will keep him away from it until he is old enough to understand! I was not a good mom prior to getting sober. I mean, yes I did my motherly duties, but alcohol always took priority!! But not anymore! So it was very nice to spend some one on one time with Mason. These are the little things that I didn't do before...and it's the little things in life that matter the most! I LOVE MY LITTLE MAN!!

Easter 2010

Mason had a blast this Easter! We kept Easter a lot more simple than we have in the past. We figure that he doesn't need to be SPOILED every single holiday!! And he didn't even know the difference, he loved it anyways! We QUICKLY colored some eggs, which of course he loved doing. Then Easter morning he woke up to his baskets and all he could say was "mom, this is so amazing". Ha ha, his vocabulary is getting funnier by the day. Then after he got what the Easter bunny brought him, it was off to church. That day at church he got to learn about Jesus Christ, he came home and told me all about Jesus, the cross and then he went on to tell me how Jesus had thorns on his head with lots of blood everywhere....Um, I am positive his teachers at church didn't tell him that, but looks like the kid has got a good imagination and figured out what happens when there are thorns on your head!!

Marianne's 30th B-Day Dinner

Yummy food and great friends celebrating Marianne's 30th B-Day!! Love my GIRL'S!!

International Women's AA Conference

MY SPONSOR AND MY ROCK:

MY SPONSOR, HER SPONSOR AND HER SPONSOR'S SPONSOR - CONFUSING HUH??

EMERIL'S - IT WAS SO YUMMY:

TERESA AND I:

JUST ME:

DISNEYWORLD:

EPCOT:

NORWAY BECAUSE I'M NORWEGIAN:

CAN'T FORGET MICKEY:

LOOKING OUT MY HOTEL WINDOW:

On February 10th-14th, I had the pleasure of attending the International Women’s AA conference in Orlando, FL with my wonderful sponsor who is my ROCK and my personal confidant. It’s a conference for women only who are all Alcoholic’s!! What an amazing event. I was able to attend last year’s conference as well because it was held in Salt Lake City, which will probably NEVER happen again as next year the conference will be held in Alaska. BRRR!! But over 1,500 women attended this year’s conference in Orlando. We attended several panel meetings where they would have a topic and 3 women would speak on that topic. Then each night they had one main speaker. Each speaker was absolutely amazing! Their stories were heart wrenching, not only because what they each went through however because when I would listen to their stories, I knew that was me too. I am not ashamed anymore to say that I am an alcoholic because I am a sober alcoholic. Most people just don’t understand what an alcoholic is. Alcoholism is a disease and a deadly one. Deadly not only in the physical form however more deadly emotionally and mentally! The disease of alcoholism took ALMOST everything from me. It took my heart, my soul and my mind which have now been restored. I’m no longer shameful and full of guilt. I have self confidence that I never had before because alcohol robbed me of all self confidence and self worth. I am so blessed to be sober and even MORE blessed that I have a family who stood beside me 100% through my alcoholism and into sobriety. Mike and Mason didn’t deserve a mother and wife who is an alcoholic however now they have a sober Mom and wife. I am so lucky that Mike stuck beside me!! I have no clue how he put up with me through my drinking, he wanted me sober however he knew that I had to be ready. I will never forget the day that I made up my mind to go to rehab. The feelings I felt that day were HORRIFIC and I never want to feel that way again! The day that I walked into rehab, I was hopeless with NO feelings left. I had forgotten how to even cry. Now I get to feel again! I get to see things in a light that I’ve never seen them before. This has been a hard journey, a journey I will have to work on for the rest of my life. But today I can say “bring it on”. I can fight anything because of the program of Alcoholic’s Anonymous!!

Oh and YES WE GOT TO GO TO DISNEYWORLD!! However it was really hard to enjoy because needless to say Orlando was FREEZING! It was just as cold there as it was in Utah. Maybe even colder because of the humidity! But I tried to take in what I could at Disneyworld. We didn’t get to see all of it because we had limited time. We had to make it back for the BIG BIG speaker on Saturday night. Now that’s committed…I had to pay 140 bucks to go to Disneyworld and not even get to see it all because I knew I needed to be at the conference!!